I’m not a critic, nor a journalist. I’m not a public figure, I’m not a director. I’m not a project manager. I’m an artist, a graduate, alumni of the Glasgow School of Art. I’m Garter. I’m an artist with my own approach. I’m an emotional writer. I’m not by the book. I’m not under contract. I don’t fit your mould. I don’t want to. My opinions, ideas and thoughts are completely mine. I share them regardless of the potential audience size. I stand by them and they live in total isolation of unwanted influence. I walk, basically, alone, there ye are.
So, anything you read from this point forward is of my own making. It is how I see the things which have presented themselves to me. If I slip into saying we, I mean me. I do not mean I speak for you. As both an artist and as a viewer, I approach things with an open mind and no assumption. It could be quite nice if you would afford me the same as you read. To take a slant or an angle or presume the impact of a situation/event/piece of art is to ignore the potential. It limits us before we begin. It influences our opinion and we often find that we just blew our own trumpet while ignoring the rest of the band.
First of all, and I’d like to address this immediately, I find it relevant; For the last seven years I have openly nursed a creative rage against my school of learning, unable to make sense of my feelings about the heartbreaking fires, unable to reach some sort of levelled thinking. Holding onto disbelief as though somehow it would provide an answer, you know? Emotional responses, well it’s a Glasgow thing I suppose. Maybe it’s a family thing. Maybe it’s a height thing. But when your whole creative being can be traced back to a memory of studio 21, 1974/5 (I think), well I hope you’ll understand even just a little. I’d got to the point where I just don’t talk about it, sort of like when someone has died and their name dissolves from daily conversation.
Whilst much of the anger and confusion seems justified, (so much remains unexplained) it has diverted potential and passion on more than one occasion. Whilst there is a deep need for clarification and answers, we have to remind ourselves of some fundamental points if artists are to continue progressively in this city.
The creative community continues to scratch their learned heads, throwing their theories into the pot, shouting for answers, boaking at the void in Renfrew Street’s roofscape, demanding an explanation. I know this, I’m one of them. Doesn’t matter how many impossible blue skies visit us, or how many nights we are sent the stars to light our way, it’s changed, it’s gone, we lost it. Our time, this century, we lost the Mac.
Fucking hell.